Quick post here, I was reading a fellow blogger's blog and read the words from 2 Corinthians 12:9, "And He has said to me, 'My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is perfected in weakness.' Most gladly, therefore, I will rather boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may dwell in me."
Those words are so powerful to me this morning!! I look back at the days upon days at the hospital with Zech. I was so weak! So helpless. The words ringing in my ears "It's big Rhonda, really big!"..a mass...Oh dear God, a mass?! What can I do? How can I fix this?! To my knees...'Oh dear Jesus...PLEASE!!' I stand up....then back to my knees. I can't even type the thoughts going through my head. Then the humbled realization....I, Rhonda Dawson, can't do a dang thing! This is too big, it's totally in God's hands.
No longer is my work, ALL my crazy little (some big..lol) projects matter. I DO NOT CARE about any of that...I want my SON!! I want my family..I want LIFE with my son!
Through the GRACE of God. I have that now! So many times throughout the stay I heard "I don't know how you do it, I couldn't". I heard "you are so strong". EVERY TIME I heard something like that I wanted to scream "I'm not strong!!! And do it, do what? I am just helplessly by my son's side! It is CHRIST, ONLY CHRIST, that is doing anything! I am only able to make the motions of life because of him!"
I am still weak, I still only want my family. I want to be a good wife, mother, daughter, sister, aunt, and friend. NOTHING else! And, with that being said, things are Great! The power of Christ is perfected now! The Power of Christ is dwelling in me....Thank you Lord!!!!
THis brought tears to my eyes. It was such a scary and difficult time! I know now to appreciate the small things!! We are so very lucky and all of it is because of God!! Thanks for the Bible passage! Miss you. Love you!
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